Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in duck's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
9:33 am	1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: “But Sterling was no Evil Doer. Stirling wasn’t game. I was losing my” ( Taken from the book Blackwood Farm by Anne Rice) 2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? The air. There is nothing i can realy touch. If I put my arm down though I can touch the mattress of the spare bed. 3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? Top Of The Pops Reloaded on BBC2 4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 3PM (3 in the afternoon as we dutch say) 5: Now look at the clock, what time is it? 3.25 PM (15:25 as we Dutch say) 6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: Complete and utter silence. Not one tv or radio is turned on and I’m not even listening to my windows media player like I normally do. 7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing? This morning. A friend of my father had helped us out with building the kitchen and he forgot one of his tools. He stopped by and I walked outside to give it to him. 8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? Actually I had this stored on my computer to post in my journal so I don’t know where I stole this from and since my internet has been disconnected (Woohoo! Only not) I haven’t been on any websites. Before I did this though I was reding a chapter of Little Lord Fauntleroy that I have had saved on my computer also 9: What are you wearing? Underwear, jeans, a white longsleeve and a pink headband 10: Did you dream last night? Yes and it was weird and something i want to use for roleplay. Need to discuss it with the mod of the community I’m in if I can though. Dani I’m sure you would like it too by the way :) 11: When did you last laugh? This morning when i was watching TOTPR 12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: A nail and on that nail a poster with a drawing of a native american girl. The fact me mum hung it up is why it’s there. If I had an choice I would remove it 13: Seen anything weird lately?: people dressed up for Carnaval. Some people are just plain weird. 14: What do you think of this quiz?: I’m filling it in because I’m bored but that’s all. 15: What is the last film you saw?: Jerry Maguire. I fell asleep halfway through though so the last movie i actually finished watching was The Man In The Iron Mask. 16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: A yacht. Well actually a really big sailboat/sailyacht or whatever they are called. I just want to have a boat where I can live on and sail to wherever I want to go. 17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: i would love to be able to play the drums or the violin. 18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: As strange as this might sound but i would probably change the impact of money. 19: Do you like to dance?: Yes eventhough i’m not really good at it 20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?: I really can’t judge since he’s not the president of my country but he might be a little less uptight if he had a Monica too :D 21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Petronia or Hannah. I just really love those names. 22: Would you ever consider living abroad?: Yes i would probably even do so if i would be given the opertunity 23.What did you do last night? Play some games online, read some 24. Who was the last person you called? Someone from xs4all to find out why I don’t have the internet ( is it me or do you also think it’s weird you can get disconnected during the weekend but not reconnected?) 25. What does the 5th text on your phone say? Wouldn’t know I deleted them all yesterday 26. When was the last time you thought about sex? This afternoon. I can not write a slash sex scene and it is driving me mad 27. When was the last time you got hurt? Yesterday when I was helping my parents out with the kitchen. I got different cuts on my hand and I hate it 28. When was the last time you cried? When I was watching TMITIM 29. When was the last time you lost something? Yesterday. I couldn’t find my bookmark anywhere. I found it this morning though 30. What are you listening to right now? silence 31. Why did your last relationship end? well that depends. i mean the last real relationship i was in with oscar ended because we were more friends then lovers and well the relationship i had with jan willem which was more about sex ended because i wanted more then that and he didn't. 32. What bothers you the most about the opposite sex? the fact that most of them only want me because of the sex i can provide. 33. Where was the best date you've ever been on? at a concert. had loads of fun that day. 34. What was the first thing a guy/girl bought for you? A ring. It’s the only thing I have left to remember Jamie by and I will always treasure it. 35. Do you date more than one person at once? No. people who do are scum 36. What was the last movie you watched? The Man In The Iron Mask 37. What was the last t.v show? Top Of The Pops Reloaded 38. What do you want for your b-day? Something nice. don't mind what as long as it's something picked with love that's the most important. 39. What are you doing tonight? Listen some music, read some, try to write, watch some tv and then it's time for bed. 40. When will be the next vacation? Don't know, don't care. i guess when i have some money and a cool band will play somewhere near me in either Germany or Belgium. I would like to go to Berlin or Cologne again. 41. How do you feel right now? a bit sick, a bit tired and i wished i had some insperation or a good slash scene to give it to me besides the part of a chat i have on my computer. and no it wasn't me who played out that slash scene it was played out by dani and her ex becki 42. Who do you think will take this next? Don't know, don't care. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
9:34 am	I noticed that most people just scroll down on an entry if there's an lj cut in it. I mostly use lj cuts so people won't say that my posts screw up their friendspage, but if that means that you just scroll over my entry I will stop using them. Yes call me a comment whore if you want. Is it really that strange that I would also like to have some comments on my lj? It's not that weird now is it? I know that some of you find my posts boring and don't want to read them but if you are deciding on ignoring me then why the hell am I in your friendslist? I mean really could you explain it? I'm not directing this to someone this is just something I had on my mind and I wanted to post it. If you feel offended then I would like to know why. because if you are offended it obviously means that what I just said is true to you. In no way do I want to offend people at all like I said I just had this on my mind. Just like the fact that the word MMMBop means an unrepeatable moment in time and that I know that. I have weird things on my mind and I know that. I know I'm a weird person. I listen to Hanson but also love Intwine. I listen to music that reminds me of happy moments or songs that just make me happy. But it sucks that I can't listen to Medio-core from NOFX or Vertigo from U2 without picturing JC playing on his bass before me. I wish I could listen to it without thinking of him I just can't because I link music to memories and when I hear certain songs I picture those memories in my head. also a reason why I can't listen to the ballad of Chasey Lane from Bloodhound Gang anymore. I get just to much pictures of him and me trying to ly on a far to small couch. I don't mind thinking of them though because they are happy memories. I know it's all over between me and JC but I'm not going to regret the time I had with him. I enjoyed the time we spend together and I had fun. It's sorry that it's over but that's how things go in life. I moved on and I'm not sad about it anymore. I know that there are more men in this world and I'm sure there is one who is right for me. because typing this part made me think of a slip of a girly boy from communist East Berlin also know as the internationally ignored song stylist Hedwig Robinson I included my favorite song The Origin of Love When the earth was still flat And the clouds made of fire And mountains stretched up to the sky Sometimes higher Folks roamed the earth Like big rolling kegs They had two sets of arms They had two sets of legs They had two faces peering Out of one giant head So they could watch all around them As they talked; while they read And they never knew nothing of love It was before the origin of love The origin of love And there were three sexes then One that looked like two men Glued up back to back Called the children of the sun And similar in shape and girth Were the children of the earth They looked like two girls Rolled up in one And the children of the moon Looked like a fork shoved on a spoon They was part sun part earth Part daughter part son The origin of love Now the gods grew quite scared Of our strength and defiance And Thor said "I'm gonna kill them all With my hammer Like I killed the giants." But the Zeus said "No You better let me Use my lightning like scissors, Like I cut the legs off the whales And dinosaurs into lizards." Then he grabbed up some bolts And he let out a laugh Said "I'll split them right down the middle. Gonna cut them right up in half." And then storm clouds gathered above Into great balls of fire And then fire shot down From the sky in bolts Like shining blades Of a knife And it ripped Right through the flesh Of the children of the sun And the moon And the earth And some Indian god Sewed the wound up into a hole Pulled it round to our belly To remind us of the price we pay And Osiris and the gods of the Nile Gathered up a big storm To blow a hurricane To scatter us away In a flood of wind and rain And a sea of tidal waves To wash us all away And if we don't behave They'll cut us down again And we'll be hopping around on one foot And looking through one eye Last time I saw you We had just split in two You was looking at me I was looking at you You had a way so familiar I could not recognize Cause you had blood on your face I had blood in my eyes But I could swear by your expression That the pain down in your soul Was the same as the one down in mine That's the pain That cuts a straight line Down through the heart We called it love We wrapped our arms around each other Trie to shove ourselves back together We was making love Making love It was a cold dark evening, Such a long time ago When by the mighty hand of Jove It was the sad story How we became Lonely two-legged creatures It's the story of The origin of love That's the origin of love It is clear that I must find my other half. But is it a he or a she? What does this person look like? Identical to me? Or somehow complimentary? Does my other half have what I don't? Did he get the looks? The luck? The love? Were we really separated forceably or did he just run off with the good stuff? Or did I? Will this person embarass me? What about sex? Is that how we put ourselves back together again? Or can two people actually become one... again? (15 Joined (Comment on this)